it's easy to be happy when it's sunny out

so it's been a fab couple of days weather-wise. but the title's not really all true, i've been in sort of a slump lately. or listless. i woke up in SUCH a foul mood this morning, i skipped 3 classes (been doing that a lot lately). i hate whiny me.

i have these 2 friends who are super optimistic, but i was talking to them today, about normal versus extra-ordinary. are you that sort of person who always thought you were destined to one day do something really ground-breaking earth-shattering (really the same thing) or the person who thought you'd have a normal white-picket fence sort of existence? i don't know, maybe that's extra-ordinary for some people. the point is, shouldn't you have high expectations, or are you better off not setting yourself up for a fall? i day-dream, and lately i have been getting further and further away from what i think would really make me happy, or what i thought my life would be at this point. eun young said something that stuck. her being optimistic about the ordinary is just a way of protecting herself from the disappointment in not achieving the extra-ordinary. it's a very "garden state" (the defining movie of our generation? rather) notion... what now? what comes after this point?

i'm a self-proclaimed spoiler fanatic (heck i read three pages of book six, flipped to the end and *SPOILER AHEAD* found out dumbledore died!) and maybe that's a way of protecting yourself too, preparing you and keeping you from getting your hopes up. what if there was a spoiler for life, not knowing everything but just the general gist and tone of it all... i couldn't resist. hmmm good thinking god. where's my sense of adventure and the unknown, right? one of the guys from the korridor moved out last week, after 7 count 'em 7 years! i give you, my carrot cake for the occasion!

in the fridge



half-way through



my neighbour polishing it off. heart nena!