i want you to want me

i need you to need me. (oh heath! why god, why?) the other day, i got to thinking about our relationships. do you think we have an inherent need to be liked? the other day i had the rather unpleasant sensation that my språklab teacher didn't like me (she was giving me the stink eye all class), it was really uncomfortable. even in relationships, would you even like the other person if you didn't have some inkling that they liked you too-o, to rescue you from the dread of rejection?we protect ourselves from loving, or even liking, fearlessly.

watch this film. it's called "welcome to hebron" (no connection) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZY83Tf-4_Xs&feature=related and it's about this then 17 year old girl, leila sarsour, and the town of hebron in the israeli occupied west bank. it's not about the political, but the everyday, and it is powerful. somethimes you come across people who make you want to be so much better than this self-consumed person you know in your heart that you are.

my team had the oral exam this week, and we totally OWNED team 2! to be fair, we did bribe with brownies. and pop.

in other news, the flavour of the week is lemon meringue! try it, it's easy, but i'd strongly recommend you use less sugar and more lemon. well, i used lime (more tangy). http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Lemon-Meringue-Pie-III/Detail.aspx and maybe a little less cornstarch. it really sticks to the roof of your mouth. enjoy!

my meringue



me with my meringue



i look stressed. it's been a touh week.

dance uninhibitedly.